dirtymulatto: wow, love.. thank you. you are so gorgeous from head to toe, i hope you have a great night. show off that smile for me :)

xo

travel writings

What can i say about Tobago
the way she sits in your hair like smoke after a fire
and tugs on your heels, like
death
chasing.
You take Tobago like a wild animal,
charting the narrow mountain tops and tight chasm roadways in a too-fast jeep driven by two red-eyed guides
and inevitably kiss ya life away at first touch of white tan yellow sands,
first sight of some muthafucking dolphins, sea turtles laying eggs, hummingbirds, darting lizards.

Forget all about being entrenched in a system, forget your big plans
things that you said mattered
or whatever has filled that void since you let NYC burrow itself under your skin and let yourself get cold and bitter and angry from years of too high rent and slick talkers and being kept in the dark and never enough time for
praise or
even remorse
And all too many times of letting go of hope just to make it
to another hour, let alone day,
in a city where you turn 50 still trying to find yourself and make your name and make home because there’s always something new and someone else one step ahead.

but not in tobago. I can’t see things with the same futile bitterness after this. not when you’ve been in a place where you hold onto your life by the balls and ride into paradise on a butterfly-bird-and-grapefruit-laden path

because you only get one life,
and because when you live in paradise
it’s hard to not let your anger get softened around the edges by humid days and a cold beer and running across yourself with those gentle lies told to tourists to get their wallets, eyes, legs open

I’m not saying I detest NYC, with it’s hard pavement and hard to find heart
and I’m not saying I love tobago, with it’s burning fields and burned rubber and passive yet peaceful demeanor that to be honest dies out when the sun goes down

dear tobago I’ve seen you rage on
hot
on fire
on rum punch stag and coffee
with pounding music
and fast cars
and I like you for it. you channel the best and worst of me
make me want to fuck and fight and laugh and cry
speak in my mother tongue
speak of nothing but today, tomorrow
forget the rest,
this is a journey that can take you away from
bad memories and lock them up forever

hi east bay #alameda #sf

hi east bay #alameda #sf

bikes friends and lake merrit. photo cred @aras_jasmine #oakland

bikes friends and lake merrit. photo cred @aras_jasmine #oakland

magical places #oldslackerville #austin

magical places #oldslackerville #austin

  • 1 2 3 #deepeddy #austin
  • 1 2 3 #deepeddy #austin
  • 1 2 3 #deepeddy #austin

1 2 3 #deepeddy #austin

neons part deux

neons part deux

all in the family genus species #yucca #agave

all in the family genus species #yucca #agave

well hello George! my how you have grown. nurture your plants and they will exceed your expectations. #succulents

well hello George! my how you have grown. nurture your plants and they will exceed your expectations. #succulents

cold water hot sun (at Barton Springs Pool)

cold water hot sun (at Barton Springs Pool)

divasdishblog:

"People are perfectly happy to see women as sex objects, but the actual biologic of our bodies is apparently gross and unmentionable."

Our Bodies, Ourselves.