Some happy morning thoughts .. I love my friends and family so much! I’m so grateful for their ridiculousness, generosity, realness. After having a really hard and lonely time last year, I feel so lucky to have had my family step up and take care of me, for my friends to be there to listen and love (and even more grateful that the not so great friends disappeared when I needed support thereby cleaning out a bunch of bullshit), and now to be through a storm.. not scarred but healed and wiser and more satisfied than I’ve ever been in life. I’ve learned so much about people I’ve known decades but never before been awake to ask or see, I finally broke through an impasse in my relationship with my mother, and for the first time Im actually cognizant of the extent to which I’ve loved and lost over the course of my 20s… I still love all yall n*ggas and that’s a good feeling. Expansive.
So yes I have super duper love for my fam, from BK to the Chi to SF and in between. Shouts to my womenfolk that forever and a day have truly and undoubtedly held me down, through thin and thick and roller coasters of my crazy multiple selves and reincarnations over the past decade… Heather Marcie Emma Erica Meimei Sara Micah Mayra Tazhia Sarah Mollie Lucy.. I don’t think you’ll see this but I love you entirely and on a cellular level these feelings will never disappear. RIP Joe Failing, I think about you on the regular.. I hope you’re soul is at peace, I know you’re watching out for me, just like when I was growing up and lost and dazed and high out of my mind. You gave my strength back then, and even now that you’re gone, you wouldn’t believe how much transformation your passing catalyzed. I will never forget you.